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Moggy

Moggy & Clawdio

Moggy is not doing well. Yesterday he was diagnosed with Chronic Renal Failure. Court’s written about it in his blog. This morning was the first time (daily henceforth) we gave him the subcutaneous fluid thingies. He didn’t squirm too bad. Overall, my outlook is a lot more positive this morning than it was yesterday, but that’s not hard to accomplish.

I love that little boy and, like Courtland, my heart is breaking. They say that he can go for months, even years if things go well (crossing every digit I’ve got). His appetite seems to be a bit better now that he’s not as dehydrated.

That little ball of black fluff has made an indelible way into our hearts and right now … well, I’m just hoping for the best.

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More Murder She Wrote

AAAAAAaaaahh! Make it Stop!

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Chair

Stokke Gravity Balans Chair
I SO have to get me one of these!

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Mom, Fat Texans and Murder

My mom had knee surgery a few days ago, that’s why I’m down here in Texas. Between her not being able to walk and my dad in a wheelchair, well, it just wasn’t gonna be a pretty situation. So I got on a plane and here I am. Mom is now doing much better and isn’t even using the crutches anymore, so that’s very good.

A few of observations:
Everyone who lives down here is fat. Well, not everyone, but a much “larger” (heh) percentage of the population than in California. And when I say fat, I mean LARGE. I don’t know if my perceptions have changed since leaving here almost 6 years ago… but it seems to me is that everyone has just ballooned into gargantuan porportions.

The mall in the largest nearby town hasn’t really changed in 20 years. My mom used to work in a store there when I was little and I practically grew up in the mall. Sad, so sad.

Isn’t it handy that Apple so generously included a lap warmer inside my powerbook? Hot! Hot! Hot! Hot!

And a frustration:
How many episodes of Murder She Wrote can one person watch!??!?!?

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What does Modern Paganism have to do with ER?

In my parent’s house, we have this habit of “watching” tv. It consists of having the TV on, Dad usually vaguely paying attention or asleep in his chair, me with a book or my laptop and mom, reading her book. Except when something catches her attention and her subsequent narration.

For me it’s background noise, something to ignore while I concentrate on doing something else. It allows me to spend time around the people I love while also doing stuff. Multi-tasking. :-) (This drives Courtland nuts and so I usually don’t do it at home.. he’s like, are you gonna watch this with me or not?).

So here I am, trying read an article on the history of modern paganism (on my laptop, leaching off the neighbor’s wireless, natch) while ER is on and all this drama and nonsense is issueing from my parents ginormous television set (takes up half the living room, seems like)….then… “it’s gonna fall….the bus is leaning on the cliff… it’s gonna fall…”

So now I’m trying to ignore the TV AND her, all at the same time. Can’t you see I’m tryin’ to read here? I want to say. But no, I stay quiet and just glare at her… this quells her narration for a moment, until the next dramatic music moment and pitch… ignoring… ignoring… ignoring…aaaarrgh!

Living away for so long has dulled my parental attention avoidance skills. God I miss San Francisco.

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Lost

It’s gone. My beloved Treo. Gone. Gone. Gone.
I had a client over, after the appointment, I had it. Then I didn’t. I think he might have picked it up thinking it was his… He hasn’t returned my 3 phone calls. So at this point it’s either somewhere in the house (both Court and I have scoured) or I must conclude that the client took it and isn’t giving it back. I hadn’t realised just how much I’ve come to rely on it till now. I tend to be pretty scatter-brained and it’s great to have my calendar, contacts, notes, etc. with me at all times. And it’s $300 to replace. Ee gad that is going to hurt.

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Another Setback

Washington upholds sam-sex marraige ban.

Just great.

The majority opinion said the state constitution and case law demanded such a decision, arguing that the definition of gay marriage should be left to the legislature or voters.

So that the legislature or voters can continue to discriminate against another group of supposedly equal citizens. Isn’t the court system supposed to protect people from being discriminated against?

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The Day So Far

I got down to the train stop this morning to discover an N just sitting there with it’s doors open. Then I looked to my left and there’s a J. Stuck there just outside the tunnel. And what are these hundreds of people doing milling around? Welcome to my morning. A Muni meltdown spectacular. There was some sort of problem with trains at the Embarcadero station and nothing was moving Inbound. So I walked up to Church and Market St. to find hundreds more people waiting for an above-ground F. That was slow in coming and packed to the gills when it did. Because of course, The F’s are filling up at Castro Station, their first stop.

But I’ve got to get to work this morning. I’ve got a temp job (that I’ve actually had absolutely nothing to do for the last two days) that I’ve got to get to. What to do? So I hoof it, in bad shoes and lugging a laptop. So for future reference, it takes an hour to walk from the Castro to North Beach. Just so you know.

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Wordpress

In the hopes of more regular updates… Oh, who am I kidding. I just wanted something to play around with. I installed WordPress on this site. YACMS (Yet Another Content Management System). Let’s see. I started this site by hand, used Greymatter for awhile, then started using Blogger when they first started up, switched back to Greymatter, switched back to Blogger, installed Moveable Type (that was good for a while), then Moveable Type decided suddenly it didn’t know who my user account was (that sucked) and went back to Blogger. So I’ve been manually going over and importing old posts into Wordpress. While doing that, I’ve been reading a lot of them. You gain a new perspective on the state that your in by reading these glimpses into the state that you were in.

Anyway. Here’s post #1 ala Wordpress. More archives are coming online as I continue to drudge through them (I forget how long I’ve had a blog! There’s a lot of them.)

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Mischievious Boys

Mischievious Boys

Warning! Serious time waster!

What do you get when you put four gay boys in a room with a video camera and dance music? Fabulous DIY Video Action!

Some favorites (videos via google):
We Belong Together - Mariah Carey
Since U Been Gone - Kelly Clarkson
Beautiful - Christina Aguilera
and of course… Madge

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Remember Music Buddha?

During the dot-bubble, there was this website called Music Buddha or MuBu. You could search for music that you liked and it would branch out with different bands that you might like. I don’t know what happened to it, I can’t seem to find it anymore. However! I just ran across Music Map which takes a similar approach!

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Portfolio To Go

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You’d think that a designer with 10 years experience in print and webwork, impeccable technical skills and a great portfolio would be a commodity. That this person wouldn’t have any problems securing a job… But you’d be wrong. At least that’s been the case with me since I moved here. Finding work is extremely difficult.

I just left an interview with The Creative Group (another temp agency). Everything seemed to go rather well. Hopefully they will be able to find work for me. Here’s to hope!

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Year 9

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Yesterday was Courtland and mine 9th anniversary. We went and had a great dinner at one of our favorite restaurants, Greens. Expensive but o so tasty!

I love you sweetie. Happy 9!

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Overheard At The Gym

This morning while in the locker room this guy was talking (rather loudly) on his phone to whom I gathered was a mechanic fixing his car.

“One of these days the car is gonna die and it’s gonna get us killed and THEN we’ll have a serious problem!”

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NaNoWriMo Next Month!


Last year I heard about this about a week into it. What is it? A challenge to write a 50,000 word novel during the month of November. Crazy in the head, no? Well, as one of the crazies, I signed up and managed to get Cindy, Libby, Heather, Kevin, Kelley and Nathan on the bandwagon. There are a few people out there that I sent out the “invitation” to that haven’t gotten back with me yet (you know who you are) that are sitting on the fence.

Don’t sit there too long though, you’ll get splinters!
Wanna know more about it? Go to nanowrimo.org and check it all out.

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Backup Systems Now Online

My copy of Movable Type suddenly decided that I wasn’t an authorized user anymore. One of the (many) reasons this blog hasn’t been updated in forever (for those of you who know me, please ignore the obvious procrastination references). Nevermind that I previously was the only authorized user. Nope, I apparently no longer existed in it’s database. SO, I’m back to my backup system, aka Blogger. I haven’t used it since they redesigned their website. What’s up with the interface by Fisher Price?

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Bike!

I bought a bike! Courtland and I were walking home from breakfast this morning and passed and estate sale and there it was. This little black mountain bike. Nobby tires, 10 speeds, you name it. I didn’t have the money on me so I went on home and hemmed and hawed about it. Then I went back and on the way said “OK. If it’s still there then I’ll buy it. If it’s gone, it wasn’t meant to be.”

I went back, the bike was still there, I bought it and rode it home. It needs a little love and a good tune-up at the local bike shop, but it’s all mine. I haven’t had a bike since I was…I think I was 14 the last time I had a bicycle.

Zoom!

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Disintegration

With shaking hands I unlocked the rent-a-pontiac got inside, turned the ingnition and slowly backed out of my parents driveway. Tried the best fake smile I could muster and waved to my Mom in the driveway as I made my way up the road. Then did a pretty good job, I think, from not breaking down completely.

It’s a very hard thing to watch a parent disintegrate.

My dad has Parkinson’s Disease. According to my Mom, he has his good days and his bad days. But all I saw was the bad days. He can barely walk. He’s in severe depression and too stubborn to see a therapist. He’s falling apart. I knew within the first hour or so I was there that he’d never come visit me in San Francisco again.

My mother, she’s a strong woman. But she’s under this constant stress. I could barely handle it for the 3 days I was down there. Perhaps one builds up a resistance to it. I don’t know. All I could think about on the way up to Houston was how I could completely rearrange my life to make it easier on them. San Francisco is my home now. While things are tight, Courtland and I love the city. It was only days ago that I said that I could never imagine moving back to Texas. Yet that was all I could contemplate while driving.

I could move to Lake Jackson, that’s a small city near by. That way I could be near my parents whenever they would need me. I could move back to Houston. That would be better on me, I think, more metropolitan. Brazoria is only an hour away.

And then I think of the heat. And the bugs. And I’m sitting here writing this at Cafe Artíste and people are smoking. SMOKING. In a restaurant. To say nothing of the completely, overwhelmingly conservative nature of the people. Especially in Brazoria. There’s a reason I escaped to California. But I have some real close friends here. It could work. But I would hate every minute of it. It would feel like a giant step backward. And I can’t ask Courtland to move across the country again. He gave up so much to go with me to SF. Now he’s making a life with me in SF. I can’t possibly ask. And I don’t want too. Just thinking about moving back here fills me with a sense of dread. I can visit more often.

I can try to come out here more than once a year.

But, seeing my Mom and Dad. It just breaks my heart.

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Things Learned Today

“Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination are omnipotent. The slogan ‘press on’ has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race.”
- Calvin Coolidge

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Dead Can Dance Is Touring!

And I’ve got tickets! Woohoo! Of course, they won’t be here till September, but woohoo! I got to see them once at the Cullen Auditorium at UH. It was the most amazing show I’ve ever seen (and I’ve seen a lot of concerts).

I can’t wait!

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